Stress is Killing Me!!
I really don’t know how to start this, but I will do the best that I can to explain. Trust me, if what I put here makes no sense whatsoever, it makes a lot more sense in my head. Right now my life is really quite stressful. Yes I know what you are thinking, “Well, so is every other 8th grader’s”. But I do much more in the way of stressful activities then most others in my grade. I also know that high school is going to be a bitch compared to middle school, but we will get out at 1:45 compared to 3:50. By the time I get home from school right now, it is usually around 5:00. To bring this back to the main point, after a 6-7 hour day at school (which entitles usually a test, fixing multiple Windows computer problems, and dealing with getting in classwork and homework on time) I’m already stressed enough to get a few gray hairs, add in a sister who either never listens to you or talks (yells) back at you when you try to help them with something, and dealing with usually a server or network problem that is keeping me from getting my DNS lookups working properly, email server wiping out all of your gmail, the router miss-routing internet traffic (usually forwarding my VPN traffic to my proxy server, not my VPN server), or my virtual machine host going down for no apparent reason. Add that all together and that is enough stress to kill a 14 year old (not literally, just using a hyperbole to stress (no pun intended) the amount of stress that I’m under). What all this is doing is making my grades drop, and giving me almost daily headaches. You might say the easy solution is to either take away my technology, have me not do any work with technology, or both. Well yes, those would be easy immediate solutions, but not very good long term ones. After 2-3 days without an interactive device, I start to become steeply depressed as my entire life is basically on them. I am NOT however addicted to said devices or the internet. These devices are just the way I communicate with people and society. In 7 years everyone will be using such devices minutely to communicate rather than the old fashioned way of doing things. I’m on the verge of holding a part-time job as a YouTube partner and am a beta tester for multiple companies which I cannot disclose. So you see my reasoning? Back to the issue at hand, there are my reasons for being stressed. What a lot of adults don’t see is actually fragile a teenager actually is. It’s like balancing an elephant on a knife edge. We are raging with hormones and emotions. Most people see girls as the more fragile ones, but in reality both are equally fragile. Girls are just more upfront about it. Sure, everybody is different, but we all have one thing in common; our passion to understand.
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8th Grade
Wow! 8th grade already! It seem like just yesterday that I was starting 6th grade, knowing no one, and now, having an interconnected web of friends between the friends that went to my elementary school, and go to a different middle school then me, and all of my friends in my middle school. I’m friends with a lot of people, from a few of the most popular girls in school, to kids on the other end of the spectrum, and everything in between. I have learned a lot about everything. From learning physical science today, to learning how to ask a girl out. I came from a school that was extremely strict. I don’t think anyone officially asked anyone out in 5th grade, now you can watch down one hallway, and you can see at least 5 relationship beginning and ending. I have learned a lot. I came into the school in 6th grade wearing glasses, no hint of designer clothes, long socks as opposed to ankle socks. If you looked up “geek” or “nerd”, it would show a picture of me. When I heard a cuss word I flinched and almost told a teacher. I have changed quite abit in about 2 1/2 years. If you have known me for all three years, you will know. I now have a girlfriend and feel wanted, instead of a nobody and am not the biggest nerd in the world… well at least I don’t show it. I think that this year is going to be the most fun year of school yet! I mean, the way it has started has been great, and I am not going to let any boring Language Arts classes stop me from having fun. I love both my electives this year, first being Spanish, and the teacher is AMAZING, and second being Drama, with my most favoritest teacher ever (she taught my 6th grade geography class and she was amazing). So as you can see, I’m going to have an amazing year, with amazing friends, and (mostly) amazing teachers.
Intresting thing
So I guess this post would be considered kind of a journal entry except that I’m not putting everything in here that I would put in a journal entry… If you read my old blog that was hosted at blogspot, you remember I used to do periodic updates about my life, who I liked, about my friends, and other stuff like that, well I’ve decided to do that here also, since this is kind of a newer version of that blog.
Well, it is spring break here and I’m going to my dad’s house again. I can’t wait to go because I haven’t seen him and my step mom since like, I dunno, Christmas. That is a long time in between visits especially because I’m used to seeing him and her every month. I really don’t know what I’m going to do there but I think anything will be fun.
Now, on to social/school/home life. Let me get this out, I like someone new, and if the person who I used to like reads this blog I promise that I’m not lieing. This person goes to a different school then me right now but in high school we will be going to the same. If the person who I like is reading this, she might be able to figure it out herself. For all others I’m sorry, no more clues then that.
